Why I keep paying for this website hosting is beyond me. The last post was from December 29th, 2014. I guess I don’t want to lose the domain, but I have really lost any interest in writing. Maybe I can change. Seeing that I have had a few (too many?) drinks, and I am already logged into my WordPress account, lets summarize 2015 so far.
2015 sucks so far.
This has been the worst year of my life. In March, I lost my dad to cancer. To say that it has affected me would be an understatement. This has turned my world upside down, and I honestly have not yet come to grips with what has happened, nor have I allowed myself to grieve. I was asleep next to my dad when he passed away. I only knew he was gone when the lights suddenly came on as two nurses ran into the room to check his vitals. There is a piece of me that feels some guilty for being asleep when he passed, but it was around 2:00am and I was exhausted. I miss my Dad like crazy, and I hate that I wasn’t holding his hand while he took his last breathe. I miss him more than I ever imagined I could miss someone.
Maybe it doesn’t completely suck…
My kids are doing well. Colin is now in the 6th grade, involved in Boy Scouts, and like his old man, is into to technology. Megan has started 9th grade, and is attending Nash Early College, is involved in Girl Scouts, and is turning into a young woman in front of my eyes (gulp!).
Brandi finished Nursing school, passed her NCLEX test, and is now an RN at Nash General Hospital. She is also attending ECU to complete her RN to BSN degree. I am very proud of her accomplishments, and glad she is enjoying her new line of work.
I now have to work on myself. I have been feeling very down for the majority of this year. I think that stress and anxiety have taken a toll on my body, and it is fighting against me. I have been experiencing major pains in my abdomen for the past couple of months, and I am scheduled for an endoscopy and colonoscopy next week to see what is going on. I hope they can identify an issue, as I am in almost constant pain and discomfort.
Well, enough whining for one night. Time for another drink.